This is my blog about everything that runs through my mind in a messed up life without direction. I’m vastly approaching 30 and still behave like I’m 20. I don’t understand life or what I want, I survive everyday with a facade of happiness on the exterior. I’m not happy, I’m lonely, I’m scared I’ve had countless failed relationships and years of battling with self loathe. I don’t expect anyone to following me or read this, I just thought maybe writing things down might help me and the future choices I make… who knows.. with love and hapiness xxTumblr (3.0; @lustwontlast)http://lustwontlast.tumblr.com/“<img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border="0" width="0" height="0" src="http://c.gigcount.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.11NXC/bT*xJmx*PTEzMDYwNTM1NTc4ODgmcHQ9MTMwNjA1MzYwMjM2MyZwPTExMDExNDAxJmQ9Y2hlcnJ5YmFtLmNvbSZnPTEmbz*2N2Q*/Njk3Y2FmMmY*MjQzYWFmNmRiMjAyM2Q3MGVhOQ==.gif"/><a href="http://www.cherrybam.com" title="Life Quotes" target="_blank"> <img src="http://www.sadmuffin.net/cherrybam/graphics/quotes-life/life249.gif" border="0"/></a> <br/><a href="http://www.cherrybam.com/life-quotes.php" target="_blank" title="Life Quotes"><b><font size="1">Life Quotes</font></b></a>”http://lustwontlast.tumblr.com/post/5726164851http://lustwontlast.tumblr.com/post/5726164851Sun, 22 May 2011 04:41:03 -0400<p><em>I guess the best place to start is at the beginning.. </em></p> <p><em>So in my mind I&#8217;m going back to 1998. I&#8217;m 16, this is when I started to really change &#8230; changing from a beautiful, excitable fun loving child into a self cricitising foolish adult. Right there on that holiday with my family after finishing my GSCE&#8217;s that was the moment it all began. </em></p>http://lustwontlast.tumblr.com/post/5726078391http://lustwontlast.tumblr.com/post/5726078391Sun, 22 May 2011 04:34:36 -0400