This is my blog about everything that runs through my mind in a messed up life without direction.

I'm vastly approaching 30 and still behave like I'm 20.

I don't understand life or what I want, I survive everyday with a facade of happiness on the exterior. I'm not happy, I'm lonely, I'm scared I've had countless failed relationships and years of battling with self loathe.

I don't expect anyone to following me or read this, I just thought maybe writing things down might help me and the future choices I make... who knows.. with love and hapiness xx